Before going to Hebron I was in and out of my addiction for 18 years.  I come from a family of four of which none of my family members are alcoholics/addicts but I grew up in a dysfunctional family unit and from a early age I felt different ... I was very much a loner and had little self esteem and confidence and was bullied throughout my secondary schooling. Like many people I socialised a lot and had noticed I would drink a lot more than my friends.  My drinking and drugging escalated as I started to get bad panic/anxiety attacks and soon came to the conclusion to help me through this my drinking increased until it became a daily thing and my obsessions and compulsions of wanting more began.

My life quite quickly spiralled out of control from being a decent member of the society to becoming a chronic alcoholic/addict which eventually lost me my home, job, dignity and self respect ... nothing else in the world mattered to me apart from drink/drugs.  My life deteriorated and become utter chaos ... life became doomed and I hated the world and everyone in it, my relationships with men become abusive whereby in the end I was involved in sexual abuse.  I also suffered suicide tendencies whereby I had seriously tried to take my own life on many of occasions and my 2^nd home was the psychiatric unit.  I had tried several attempts of recovery but I kept on relapsing.